Ouch! I accidentally wounded myself while I was cutting my toe nail two evenings ago.
The reason was……………. I didn’t wear my reading glasses. Hahaha! I thought I could just “feeeeeeeel” through it, I thought I could just sense it, I thought I could… till I saw my blood!
Yes, it is a sign of aging. Now I can find wrinkles not only on my face and I can pinch my thigh easily even though I walk every day to strengthen my muscles.
Aging is actually not that scary. It is not like suddenly I found my face full of wrinkles when I wake up in one morning. Once I spoke to a wise man years ago, he told me the worst part of aging is not death, it is the process of falling ill and in pain before death happen. I think it is quite true.
If I were to ask myself what is the scariest thing for aging, there is an inner voice saying “I did not do enough”. Hmm… that’s sounds really scary to me. “I did not do enough” can cover many aspects in my life, like becoming a good daughter, how I look after my health, the way I enjoy my life etc. I used to think I had a lot of time and could not imagine I would grow old one day. I can’t turn back the time nor I can be a perfect person. Honestly, I did enjoy those days when I was not achieving anything, staying still in bed all day long and spending money on unnecessary, to me, that’s part of my growing up. However, the thought of “I should have save up those money” or “build myself” did came across my mind before.
Well, regretting on what I didn’t do enough in the past does not help. When I ponder upon how time flies, I refocus on doing what I can do best at this moment and create more sweet memories. What’s really matter is how I can make the rest of my life be the best of my life by doing what I want.
“One day, you will wake up and there won’t be any more time to do the things you’ve always wanted. Do it now.” Paulo Coelho