Personal Story of Healing

I grew up in a very traditional family as the youngest of six children, surrounded by many people yet feeling completely unseen. With such a large age gap between my siblings, each of them tried to discipline me in their own way. Instead of feeling supported, I lived in constant fear of making mistakes. I spoke so little that people thought I was mute. My extreme introversion and lack of emotional safety shaped my early years.

School offered no refuge. I experienced severe bullying and exclusion from as early as preschool. At home, even with nine family members living under one roof, I could not find connection. So, in my teenage years, friendships became everything—both a lifeline and a form of self-protection. I learned to be a people pleaser, pretending to fit in while feeling like a lonely, unloved child inside.

By my teens, I had already vowed to live as a loner, believing it was safer to be alone than to feel unwanted or rejected. My first deep depression hit at 15, followed by another at 18 after losing two close friends. Survivor’s guilt made me feel unworthy of continuing my life.

As a young adult, I watched others build relationships and homes while I felt empty, always wondering, “Where is my home?” I tried living abroad, but eventually moved to Singapore to work as a cabin crew for 13 years. Each time I landed, my colleagues celebrated coming home. For me, every landing felt like just another destination—a sign that I still hadn’t found a place where I belonged.

At 31, everything changed. I committed to deep healing through meditation, inner-work, and workshops, determined to find peace and repair my relationships with my parents and the friends I had lost. This journey transformed me. I became a practitioner and later a trainer, helping others find emotional safety and self-love—the very things I once lacked.

Through healing, I reconnected with myself. I embraced my past not as something to escape, but as a source of strength and wisdom. At 38, I married. In my 40s, I welcomed two healthy children. Today, I love every part of my life. What once felt like pain has become my purpose.

I now firmly believe that a healthy life begins with caring for our mental well-being and nurturing our relationship with ourselves and others. When we build safety within, we become resilient—and from that place, love naturally flows.